I just got to read thru some my previous posts over the years. Have been keeping this blog since err.. Sec 3? Recorded down about 230 posts already. Back then, I was always penning about my daily life, complaining this, complaining that and almost everything I did... hahaha

It's totally memorable to look back at your self and . Laughing at the stupidity, the fun, the sillyness, childishness. Sure, there were definitely much unhappy things in my life and I penned all these down with great hatred and sorrow before. But from a reflective viewpoint, If I didn't undergo all these back then, would I be of today? Everything WAS simplicity. Yes, that's the word. Simplicity. I guess I lost it all. Not actual lost, I prefer that this characteristic in me is mutated. Haha, yes... u can go relate it the form of alien creatures in mutation. It probably gets uglier most of the time but haha, u got stronger with the ability to protect yourself.

Yes, its all changed. I don't believe in the word 'Pure'. There's no pure happiness, no pure evilness, no pure anger, pure hatred, pure love. Nothing is just purely, exactly, 100%. It wld be 80% love and 40% hatred taking a reference to my class. Everything do occurs at the same time. We ain't mutally exclusive. Tada. Exactly... if only things were so easy to be defined. Life would be much easier.

The chinese word for Pure is '单纯' and as my mother always says '单纯给人骗'. It's true. Given a choice, would you rather be the one that don't know all the things out there or be that one that knew it all? Im the latter one. There's a word out there. Pretence. U can pretend that you don't know but no way can you pretend that you know. Be a smart ass.

Nope, I dont think I'm complicating saying these stuffs. What I goes by in life is only Genuine and Fake. That's all. It can only be that 2 and I don't care how many percentage were there into it.

For all the stuffs I've gone thru in 18 years of my life, I've gone this far here. Cheers.

On the lighter note, I dig out a post back in my post 'O' period while waiting for results and I laughed my ass off for 2mins after seeing this!

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Sunday, January 07, 2007

anyone thought that i had died at home?
died of boredom?
why?

i am not attending any JC now
i dont have a job now and neither am i intending to find 1
dont bother to watch any tv show
dont even want went online becus of e lagging internet
i stayed at home everyday
and hardly step out off the house anyway

the worst is that i plain happy that i am been a useless bum at home
eat and sleep and play
no work nor study
what a wonderful life=)
lolx
written on 10:26 PM

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goodness! yar, laugh all you can. I can't believe how I really did that back then =X hahaha..but right, I'm not hiding my past away because all these were part of me. Part of today's mutation of myself.

Yes, u may bet otherwise, I'm proud of what I've undergone and mutating into a stronger one =)