Ok. after making this blog post, I'm gonna pull off the bandage on my charger and keep it away. My laptop can't do without a charger now and it's really too tedious for me to set up after that.... so, that it. I won't be tempted to on the laptop and play my life away anymore 

so well, no more! Till my exam are over. NO MORE.

I realised I so behind already. Literally speaking... I'm don't have e confidence anymore. A look at accounting and finance says I'm dead. I can't even remember how to do those qns which i done a few weeks back and now i still have NEW chapters to work on. and i choinged to work out my SW notes all e way till now after procastinating for the whole semester (look, at this point of time, just 2 days away, i shldnt be doing note really==) HOW?? what made matters worse is that I slept and played throughout my sat because i really dont want to do accounting... Kill me

where is my missing 2%? because virgos are suppose be good accountants, but im NOT. unfortunately.

my efficiency went missing. Oh well... maybe there's no sense of urgency to do well for my studies infact..UNTIL like 2 days ago.

with regards to my SW course, I promise Im gonna stop complaining from now onwards. It will be something im gonna take for my life career, hopefully. At least 70% sure for now. And well, hopefully nothing more is gonna get into my way and no more conflicting thoughts in me either. i guess it might be bit too late though but i sorted out a lot a uncertaincy in my mind during the midst of this whole study period. 

suddenly i wanna do well for my course already

and that what i really want, is to pursue knowledge. So well, I'm willing to learn ((:

If im willing to work hard, I guess I can be successful and HAPPY with myself at the end of the day. the most important part for me now is to put behind all the past negative thoughts and strive forward. It's gonna be difficult but...im willing to try now. cheero, i became a better person again.

but before that, im gonna plug off my comp and work hard. haha

=(

but can't believe I have to resort to THIS. GOSH

oh well, I came up with a thoery that I should now look at thing in depth, lightly. No use trying to comprehend something too complicated, instead, try appreciate it in a different light and mindset.

off i go. CIAO