I'm back again ((:

well... mood was in e junk as i tried to 1st try to research my SW topics then blah blah blah then I went into e my choice. DIE* Kill me, i shouldn't be thinking about THAT when i my exams are just like 3days away.

i guess it's pointless for me here to repeat anything here. Too long and complicated also Lols, with the unppractical reality i'm thinking off now. My brain sucks, having to think so much in e first place.

Because i'm a 98% virgo. I find myself as the complicated and different creature from e others. What made matters worse is that my mindset changed a lot in the past few years. And I know, it's not flicker minded. So yea...it's either i suppress myself somemore or e great revolution to bring about the changes. Thinking is useless when I can't and won't do anything about it.

And well... enough of my 'let nature take its course' . That's mainly why I'm in this state until now. Because nothing is done. I left all to fate. And what have fate done to me? nothing. So.... back to square 1, nothing is done in my life!

Yes, i can't deny I'm upset with such small things again. Well, what i usually do is to read up on astrology or do personality test. K, i noe it's kinda strange, yet comforting isnt so? To actually have some 'things' to support you on what and why you're feeling in the manner. (I know... I'm plainly like this because I'm a virgo. Yea...and that's my character.) I guess I just need something or someone to tell me that "yes, it's perfectly fine. I'm still perfectly normal". An assurance from source would just be enough bring away all my doubts. But what ifs....what if one day that i'm no longer fine. (u noe what i mean) How would I really know when I'm unwell? The prolong...i say its emotion ruins hidden well within me, will it or has it numb myself away already? Look, no one know how I'm feeling and I keep on telling myself im okay im okay im okay..... so, what ifs???

well, enough of the day. Complicating virgo's thoughts. And i think my birthdate had something gotten do with me getting all e 98% traits of it. 14th is like exactly in e middle of 23aug and 23sep. so....thats made me a perfect virgo! Duh, virgo are perfectionist. and I say it again, being a perfect virgo is tiring. TIRING. and when we don't get what we expected, we get emo. Oh well, as for why we USUALLY don't get what we expected is always because we set high goals for ourself and pay too much attention to little spoilt details. As for how come we paid too much unecessary attention to little things, because we're sensitive. Why are we sensitive? Because we're too much concern with our ownself being 'perfect' in others' eyes. and since human can't be perfect, we will all put on a nice facade to hide our true 'inperfect' self away. Then virgos shut away from human. In their own practical lalaland. be be 'perfect'. One thing to take note, as for why virgo refuses to do anything to their own screwed life is because they're extremely cautious and they refuse to take on e responsibility or risk that comes with it. If we don't dare to try, then how to get a 'perfect' life? See, how nicely everything linked up. DUH, VIRGOS. ==

sighs- I'm tired.

Better stop all the useless thoughts, get into bed and prepare to mug for another day.