Have been organising those admin data for the past few days. I probably sent out at least 200 msgs in these 2days. What for? Just to ask them if they're coming back to the club not and asking for their email address also. And no ppl bother replying also! I only gt back like 25 replies ( 15 to stay and 10 to leave) then i went on to classify the list further of 'gt hope' and 'no hope'. And I'm gonna be thick-skinned enough soon to call up the 'gt hope' list and ensure tt they are still staying.

sighs- sorting data is just that tedious. Sure, i'm not complaining.

Everyone agrees that NYPTKD is a piece of shit. Ha, that's what Sir Vincent said himself even. I couldn't agree less with what he said in fact and even sympathise with this sir who had stayed in the club for like 15yrs already. I mean... I exactly know how much efforts I had put into bringing the club tgt and I gues it's the same case for everyone too. We only do work when we're free and wanted them. It would be totally impossible to juggle between school and the club. We don't have the time, don't have the skill and don't even have the commitment...resulting in today's state, a plie of shit.

But somehow I suddenly remembered what Mr lionel told us in year 1. He strongly advise us, as SW students, to break into the commitees of our CCAs. (Oh well... for my case, it wasn't break. it's THAT campus road run event ==) Anyway, I don't really take what he says to mind and my mindset at that point of time wasn't even set on sport management.  Oh well, Mr lionel was like forever enthu about my progress in the club somemore and i feel the pressure from him and as an SW student to perform and deliver what I am supposing to be good at. But I actually wanted so much to tell him... "hey, TKD club is really failing under me ok. It's a piece a S*** now" But now, I think Mr lionel made sense. I mean...if I can't even manage a cuckoo NPTYKD club, how am i gonna manage the real big sport clubs in the future?!? Fish. Ok...so i better get the club out the pile of shit and start proving my worth as an SW student==

Ok, I also borrowed a few sport management books from the library yesterday to keep me enrich and entertain for the whole hols. I got myself brand new books! Probably no one even touched them for the past decade or so *proud* nvm so... they nv know how much things they missed! Well, indeed i did question my choice before, but i had grew myself out of all the uncertainty and had a clearer understanding of myself. It's hard to explain how I came about all also... Look, I'm not a sport fan, neither an athlete, or someone who like to manage responsibilities alot. But who say u must be one in order to be learn sport management, who defined that an SW student must be outgoing and like the sun? Seriously, I don't care if i'm like e alien in my group of classmates already. Or how much others will say that I don't suit the course. I can't exactly state what is it in me... well, there's an unspoken interest in it... maybe it's just sports studies? I dunno yet, but I'm definitely gonna continue to do what I want.

I swear Im gonna work damn hard for it, alrighto?

and mother, stop asking my to get into finance! ( i will die, seriously) ==

end for the day-