ok, I want to blog meaningfully. I'm always got lot of insipiration after I got mentally and physically drained out. Was talking with jess over some hopelessly bimbo acts till 3am the previous night, when I'm actually having lesson at 8am in e morning.

so its actually a little more than 3hrs of sleep before I got pulled out of bed to prepare for a fresh day ahead. School ended early today like 1pm. Its ZOOM and gone. Was looking through some further careers and education opportunities after i graduate. Uni requirement is a bitch. I hate it when i don't qualify for ANYTHING in singapore education. I don't think my career opportunities are that bad. I guess I'm okay to stick with it for my whole life but who wouldn't want to get a degree in life? I WANT something, but we're not given a equal platform to try...at least... Unfairrr =(

but my poly life is already this screwed. What to do? Dammit.

ok, its a screwed ICT test before i call it a day, in school. Took train with joyce, its always nice to have someone to talk to trip. Ok, was thinking if i should go home to sleep or go to study during the spare time I've on hand. Guess what, I think until i missed douby ghout interchange and ended up in Raffle Station. ==

I dunno what got into that i decided to alight at Raffles,  and took a round at the city, alone. It feels...so..frightening real. You are like the only 'weird' one in jeans and t-shirt being trapped in a crowd, all clad in office attire. And I walked away so much that I spent quite some time to take a round back to the MRT station. It's easy to get lost among all the tall building and the whole world around u seems to be rushing for time. The whole place is just..PRESSING. Pressing Hard.

I find that nobody stops and looks around. They continue their pace and I say it's reality. Will I be someone like them 10years down the road? Or is there any passerby like me today who will be observing ME next time? 

What matters most to us in life actually? What is your life revolving around today? What about the life in the future? I WILL continue seeking an answer in the process. Ok, end of my CBD stint now.

Next! Guess what??? I actually saw my brother on the same train and even on the same compartment on the way back home! OMFG== what's happening today?!? I ended up in raffles 'accidentally' then i chanced upon my brother on the same train somemore. 

and hell...he must be either damn blind or trying to fake ignorance WITH me. We act like strangers, with like 5m apart and a few passenger in between only==

Well, i raise this issue up with him tmr...muahaha

I could have gotten home with him but i decide to go compass point to study instead. Decide not to sleep my life away. Was at the library frm 230pm all e way until 630pm. Sit till my butt sore. It's straight Jap studies all the way and i feel like stabbing myself.

FW arrived FINALLY then we hanged out for the night. I realised, no matters how busy I get to, I will still find time for a special friend like her. We can talk all rubbish the whole night! XD Dig out those worse than horrible secondary school neoprints. Say yucks==

I promised to groom myself every 1/2 a year. No more digusting hair. 

Anyway, i reckon it's just a matter if you think everything you do is worth it or not. Some things are, some things are not.

Went back home at ard 930. It's about 14-15hrs outside recently...call it a day...i'm destroying my health THIS badly. With a JAP ICA to mug actually...

The tiredness in me somehow motivate me to move forward. But i want to slack also =(