It's Fri! and my hectic finally finally drew to an end, only to have a MORE hectic life ahead.

Boo... it's ICT project, ESW project, Business Finance ICA, Jap Role Play, Jap E-Quiz and then I can offically start mugging for my semestral exams. ok..in another word, Im this busy for the upcoming week infact.

Demanding ehh... EXAMS will commence on the 14th Aug. End on 22 Aug.

anyway, I wonder if i can REALLY scrap through this semester, of which i successfully done so for the past 2 sem though... argh, finance and EFMA is e killer. 

Had EFMA test today. Decide to skip e morning lessons and went to library and STUDY. I was so not really yet. 6 straight hrs since 8am. Did like 4 exam papers... I thought I was pretty much ready by then for e test. So WRONG. Tests were lik so different frm my exam papers. I seriously wonder what e lecturers are thinking by setting such wrong things. It's not only difficult and most importantly, it's don't prepare us for exam! My first EFMA ICA which covers e 1st 3 lectures are not in exam (luckily) and my 2nd one was that rubbish paper...and if i fail this again (most probably), Im will be in a so dangerous situation of repeating module. OMG.

went for TKD. time for some workout finally. Quite fun though Im like e only female trainee today. cept for mdn Jolene who came ltr on. But training along with ONLY e seniors feels good. Just keep on acting pro and play around ourselves trying those chim techniques. Sparred with Jolene as a mean to prepare her for national.. kinda fun to learn from black belts. though i suffered numerous SEE-ABLE bruises again afterward. Fine, gonna show off to wenxin when i see her next week, or alissa, hahaha...all sadists unfortuately. U want bruises?? come to me! XP

ok, new thoughts recently. There can't be too much 'WHY' in your world. Some parts you just have to...let it go, give it a pass, get it over. Got this after a classmate asked my national gymnast why she trained so hard (like every single day after sch till 9++). Not for 'getting better' in sg if your get what i mean, not for passion else she could just take it up as a recreation..then what?

I guess there's no ans to that. Everytime I keep on questioning myself why did i join Sports and Wellness, why did I choose TKD, why am I feeling this way, why did I do that thing....well, life would be tough if i pursue an ans for all these...thinking through what I had done ALREADY is just too tired and wasteful in life. Well, i can put it into a word that... I might regret for not thinking through a decision... but i can't change anything just by thinking...ok,take it that way,

if I really went ahead to dropout from SW then because character really dont fit in; badly, and mainly because i feel that I would be better off if i do others courses (yes, i still feel the same NOW) but... were all these the 'right'  ans as to 'why'? I realised that there's no absolute right or wrong in everythin we do in life. And yes, I do feel that choosing SW isnt the 'wrong' choice either. At least for now, Im convinced that it would be okay with me to take sports management as a career for life. So why make life difficult for myself by constantly reminding the 'why' of my choice? Izzit really that important? Is why 'Im feeling this way' so important also?

Some things have no explaination. Some things need no further explaination. Thoughts might be free, action come with a consequence. The risk bearing it...oh well, sometime comes too high. No guts to take them in also... shall lessen the stress myself by thinking less then..jaaaa

I think my brain is as crappy as my 3 layers taped laptop which charger had fallen loose and I haf to tighten them like microwave plastic wraps to the laptop. Unglam. Well, perfect time for e batt to fall loose anyway. I'll be damn pissed off to bring to school or even switch on the laptop. That meant no comp till my exams are over! I seriously need to cut my useless online time for the sake of studies. 3more weeks! OMG again...

-off to mug in my purple dream! MUAHAHHA