finally, an early day for me now. Crashed a mkting lecture an hr before our exact slot so I got to return home early w/o exactly ponning. hehe...Yes, it's 6pm and is EARLY. Considered the fact that I only got home at 10+  the previous few nights.

as promised, I gonna write up a little post on my thoughts of poly life so far. 

I realised that studies are not the only and most probably not the top priority in poly already. It's a bit more about life management in a complex environment (depends on how you see it). For someone that lacks social experience and is as well inadequate of it too, I guess it was a really hard breakthrough 

It's been 1 and 1/2 year since I entered poly already. The beginning in which I really struggled hard to adapt everything in a total new environment. From the most simple schooling time to the complex relationship... Well, no one gonna believe that if I said that I'm used to wake up on 7am every morning even in the hols. But, yes i did. I'm practically so used to the fixed life I had already. Wake up at 6am, usually get home at 2pm, never stayed in school beyond 7pm, go to bed on 11pm.

Well, poly timing are so screwed to the sense the it's not fixed, full of uncertainty and well.. distraction. School can start as early as 8am, or as late as 4pm. I can had a 2hrs day then followed by a 7-11 life. Not forgetting to mention the always extra long break in between of classes. Oh well, this is where time management become so important. I've seen some really efficiency and some that really gone bad. When people complained that there's not enough time, did they really consider the time which they wasted away? Let's take R's day for example, she felt so stressed about the projects, which she had yet completed. To let it all out, she went to talk to friends for a couple of hrs in the night. When she got home, it's already so late but had to complete the couple of projects since deadline is the following morning. Didn't slept for the whole night and gt really upset and stressed. The whole cycle repeated itself. Another case, H. She is a professional sportplayer and has training every single day till late night. Immediately after school, she goes for training. But, she still did quite well in her work and surprising, she skipped lotsa classes also. It was only today that I found out and learn from her. If you had a lesson which ended at 12pm but you gt only a 1hr final class at 4pm. Most people (in the right mind), at least me would choose to skip that useless one hr and return to home and mug instead, but....no, don't skip. Choose to crash for a earlier lecture at 12pm! Wees, H totally pwned me in that ((: efficiency is well..something we can control actually. 

Human relationship is the total crappy thing to handle. Can't control others isn't so? Unlike boring secondary school days when everyone dresses not only the same but all are also on same age group. Well, even if you don't bond well with classmate, there's always teacher to help. Everything changed for me in my Poly. Being in SW class for the whole year made me learnt a lot, SW is a class of people who were a whole lot different from me. It's abit difficult and even hurting for me intially because I really cannot understand them (they can't understand me). Eventually learnt to express myself better and controlled my emotion myself better. Really glad that I didn't choose to give up (in) because it was even worse than pure frustration. But, I eventually got over and retained my pride which is what matters most afterall. I learnt from a lot of impressive human and observed those screwed ones. Seeing different individuals and how they worked is well...highly amusing experience. Instead of avoid them like what I did in the past, I can now deal a tricky situation tactifully. Am really proud of that.

Well, I guess I might have lost some (I had not realise of course), but definitely gained a lot so far already. Well, i guess I can be a no-life human in poly easily and was at one a point of time. Because my characteristics fit all. When I got too tired with all the problem and choose to avoid them. I guess studies, unfortunately, weren't too much of a demand for me (dont really care, lol). Don't care about those fking human socialising, sch frm 9am-2pm. Home sweet home, do my homework, no tkd in the night, So relaxing ehh? I do enjoy slacking of course. But doubt if i gained any points from it. There's nothing for me to boast as a no life slacker. haha

Yes, I might had struggled so unhappily that I gave up for a change, but instead accept to learn and observe from all happenings. Learning does not mean having to change a part of yourself. 

Looking back, I realised I had came so far already. Grew up.

I guess there's still a lot more for me to say about the whole thingy, another time perhaps. 14more days to exams!