ok, this post gonna be a long long whine on TKD (:
soooooo, I finally back to training of like 3weeks of MIA.
and i need to rant

1st thing
attendence rate dropped to a new low after the freshie join in or so. I guess its the time when everyone settled in already, those that don't hold any passion for the sports have already quitted and those who do, continue to turn up. Sadly, it that pathetic amount. And yeah..somehow TKD needs MARKETING to retain the people.

2nd thing
horribly shagged training.
That day was hot and our normal tobak is thick enough, yet Sir Kangwei made us wear padding during running somemore. Completed 2.4km barefooted on the track and that's only part of our warm-up. I repeat again, its part of the WARM UP only.
Sir Weisoon took the class later and sure enough, he works differently. He took the 2nd half of the warm-up and then off to MORE pysically training. Did plenty sets of abs/arms/legs exercise. Wornt out by then. Because I knew lactic acids are sure to build up the next morning.
Sir CK & Arvind then took us for technique kicks. I gt to admit the my basics suck totally. Later part was an excercise with a partner to do the turning kicks. Apparantly, Arvind went forward to 'fix' my angle so much that the side hip muscle gt over strained. Thanks huh=.=
the last and final part was round sparring. Before my body finally get K.O and calls it a day.

am still pointing at others and looking over at the injuries we all suffered. I can still laugh at the moment of time because others are worst off than me. But i regretted the moment I got home, hidden bruise starts coming out.

*pants hard*

Injuries.
-running 2.4km on track 1st time after 3mth gave me swollen feet with blisters.
- A overstrained left thigh thanks to sir arvind. Practically hurts for every step i took today.
- 5 serious bruises that at least of a 50cents coin, and an uncountable numbers of minor ones
- Lactic acids built itself from the abs all the way down to the calves. the saddest things is that it gonna be there for at least 3 to 4days
- Most importantly, the red rashes are up again, whenever my body get too heated up on occasion and i need medicine for that.

See how taekwondo kills me =(

and the harsher the training gets to, the more i would question myself on WHY i am still in there. Before I talked about my passion for TKD, i would talk about from what I have learnt so far in sports and wellness.
Frankly speaking, my body type don't suit taekwondo. My muscles are more genetically developed in slow twitch fibers, not the fast twitch one. This somehow hinders the training because TKD is more about SPEED and POWER and apparently I lacked of them. Im more suited anerobic sports and not aerobic training like TAEKWONDO. And my bones and joint structures are that stiff and rigid. Not flexible and loose. Admit it, I would nv be able to do a split in my whole life. unless i break my bones.

and toward the mindset for TKD. I must say... it aint exactly good too. I joined TKD intially because my best buds, jocelyn and fionne, wanted to join it. And that as a SW student, i need to find a sport to join too. so somehow im used to go to training only if they went there. Then i got to know a few more people in the club like wenxin and cath, and eventually familarise myself with the whole club. I've no problem to go to training alone currently but I would prefer to have them around most of the time. Friends do matter most.

Then, I got into the dumb committee thingy and became the secretary. As to why the hell I am in the committee in the 1st place is because I represented TKD for the campus road run event. (stupid isnt so? I don't possess leadership) and somehow, being in the committee means commitment but that does not equate to passion. I can't bring myself to quit TKD no matter how de-motivate or harsh it gets to. Because I held onto a post. A POSITION. Its like a role model to be exact=.=

And im still here, remaining in the club till date as i witnessed my fellow partners leaving one after another. The strength just gets smaller and smaller. Fionne, jocelyn, cath have found their soulmates in TKD, well not me though. But anyway, they stayed on till date somehow due to the binding relationship isnt so? not me again though.

look, so why and what am I staying behind TKD for?
I admit the passion gets bigger but it will never be comparable to Kangwei or any of the blackbelts sir. I might be able to get better technically. But again, Im not willing to dedicate time to train.
No skills, no passion. So what matters most to me actually in TKD?
I hope to find an answer soon
This shall spell the end of TKD rants=)

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take a break here, shall talk about meeting with irene and jess today.
ok, sorry this came after my tkd rants~ but its still gonna be of some importance! XP

to irene, because I know that you will be reading this and the below msg would be for ya (:

I guess, I did all I can as a friend to help you today. Hee, and hopefully I don't come down all the way from kovan for nth XD. Because I see that you need some help, and that im willing to give it a little try for that no matter how insignificant its seems to be. Guess jess and me had already said all in our little meeting at the end of the day. Do help yourself and move forward in your life for the sake of yourself. good luck and i really mean it. (=