Before I knew it, school had already started!
whees...I actually think that I'm must busier during the holiday instead. But somehow I think wasted my 2weeks hols AGAIN.
I still want more time for myself actually(:

hees, doesn't feel much to be BACK in school in a new term. Nothing is new in the first place also, hahaha

and today is basically a eating day. A lot of my classmates went overseas during the hols and return with a lot of food, so...we were basically eating during the whole of the marketing tutorial.
I gt, biscuit, sweets, chocolate, dried mango, tau sau pia, ma chi and a hpchain frm them today. See, my classmates are actually some really really nice people.
compare to some u-know-what classes where there's alot of backstabbing, gossiping etc.

But the main problem is that I don't actually feel bonded with MY CLASS.
Is more like, there's some sort of communication difficulties with them, I don't think I speak more than 10 sentences in the full 4 hrs with them. I just smile, nods, and listen.
somehow, I kept thinking of this issue, comparing my class with my secondary school day friends.
note the terms difference, classmates and friends.

I conclude that being like the ONLY chinese speaker in class is really this BAD seriously. And their somewhat discrimination to speaking chinese make it worst. The environment I'm in for the past 10 years make a difference. And I need extra work and time and adapt to this. The moment I open my mouth, weird pronunciation comes out. The best mtd for me is to keep myself shut.
Well, there's another problem, their English ain't good to me also! Its almost as bad as mine, just my pronunciation is abit=.= So what are classmate trying to show when they do their anti-Chinese talk using their broken English for that? tsk tsk... XDXD

Characters and interests differs a lot also. I remember the first thing my secondary school friends say after lesson is over wld be, " Hey! Let's go home!"
Classmates would say, " Go swimming la, or....go queenway or anyway out"

I always ended up rejecting their good offer. But that...I really don't enjoy outdoor, especially swimming on that hot fri noon.

another comparison below

Friends: I think, I think
Classmates: Just do it

my grp of friends did a lot of consideration. They analyze the situation before making a move. And that they're a cautious too. while classmates are straightforward, very much. They don't hold anything back in fact and this hurts a lot at times.

There's 101 difference i see between classmate and I. Ranging from the religion, language, interest, strength, behavior, characters etc
Gah...wth, I feel like... in...a...foreign country=.=
but in fact, I'm actually very much a weird human to begin with.

And I have came to accept this, I can't change this much just to get into their clique because it make myself upset. My sensitivity with their straightforwardness can't work well. And they don't understand me either. But actually, all its take is to give in a step to each other and work out the difference among us.

For all the conflict and misunderstanding that I went through with the class, I think I had changed for the better gradually over the times. I'm equally glad for their acceptance for me also. We learnt from experience.

So much for that above, SA still rocks (:
I actually look forward to TEP in 3mths time. The whole lot of modules I'm taking this semester suck a lot, especially when we start getting back the paper this week. Expected to fail effma and finance, laws and SW won't do well either. I need to work on my screwed up studies soon.

k, end of the day, 8am class tmr.