mood isn't exactly good, or particularly bad.
morning seems like it gonna rain
done abit of thinking last night
didnt slept well enough
a mild headache
and morning should be quiet

I freaking lose the concentration on my marketing project currently.
i just finish writing e damn product 4(p) which took up 1 whole darn page. There 3 more Ps not yet started
and there's 2 more section to go.
and now i think i gotta deleted part of it because it simply TOOO LONG. Im exceeding the page limit at the rate i'm going.

Why did I choose Microsoft in the 1st place? *stabs myself*

and i doubt our MET-ONLY-ONCE-REPLACEMENT tutor will even read through the report for e fcuking efforts we spend on it. It's 8-10pages so long. Microsoft is damn technical and i doubt if he can even understand those computering term. and I practically have to wiki them up and blah blah blah~
so much information is available but you don't understand a single thing. What's the use?

Due on fri but we have a business finance test on Fri too. and i have nuff about it. We were only brief on the project like 1week ago?

shall try to complete the report tonight, the rest of the day will be modification.
tues, wed, thurs will be that 3 days to choing my BF
and I haf to use the weekend study SW
and immediately after that, im gonna prepare laws and effma test on the same fri also.

TERM BREAK IS THEN. so near yet so far :(
tsk tsk, no time to rest. if not i'll flunk.



ranting is good my your mental

Random thoughts.

I like the feeling of struggling.
At least it's not helplessness.

You're at least doing something, not nothing to save yourself.

The heart is beating. You can feel it.
The eyes are closing, and you knew it.

struggling, struggling to keep yourself up. Don't surrender to fate.
Save your tears for they are precious water. Exchange them for the blood.

You still can choose your destiny. Fight on.
struggle for yourself.

i decide take a little time out and do blogging.

busy. Am I?
yea, gonna be. with all those tests and projects coming up. Darn! i don't even dare to think about them now. Tsk tsk...Martketing mangament is due next week and im not even started
hmm... and it payback time, for the slacking period i had so far.
when you don't listen in class. I have to balance up with more forced self-studying back home. It still like...err, 1 for 1. just like well...
You gained time as you flunked your studies.
nvm, i reckoned im still balanced so far..ehh right? :/

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little things on MT happen daily to make me little piss. but alright. STAYING piss-ed is the most time energy consumption stuffs. Either you can just f them back immediate or that u treat them as junk. just don't bring the piss-ed mood offline.
Individualism. I can't denied that Im one of in the first place. I don't like to ask for favour try to do all by myself
but teamwork just rocks when the whole team come behind and support one another when MT got into some freaky issues.

*winks* i still dunno why staffs are willing to slave so much for MT...
w/o them..argh...M-T is just nothing>.<
M-T meant a lot, thanks peeps(:
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it's a no school day! Wonderful! And i decide not to go back to school specially just for tkd. stayathm just rocks-
hmm, randomly thinks that i should go gym and RUNNNNN this afternoon
i still hate the gym and threadmill. Air was like so still in the aircon that i began to feel breathless for just 2.5km=.=
should haf run in the open but stadium was way too far...
morning can't wake up to jog, afternoon too hot, and night i might just get lost among in the private street..ok..
all EXCUSES, just lazy to get out of homee
run like 8.5km this time round? despite targetting a 10km today. speed went slow either. I didnt know how to get back to 5km/0.5hr like my first run without water break somemore. and my back was hurting all during the run. i think my back waist gt too much FATS =.= but i dunno how to shed them off either...
duh, blame that fact tt sat infront of the computer too much
hmm, i try 10km next time!

Go a marathon! hahaha.

andimissmyfriends-

blog blog.


tkd for last night-. stayed behind and watch the peeps training. So shack. Im silently relieved tt i not out there. muhhaha
but gt down ltr to join in the fun as they practise pattern! awww...i miss freshie days. and my white belt pattern. green belt is getting sooooooo complicating>.<

returned home- opted not to do tutorials at all...hahaha, tired.

didnt slp well because it either too hot or too cold (with air-con) was basically waking up the adjusting or switchinng off aircon for e whole night=.=

morning- im most probably not yet awake or what on the 8am lesson. Was practically in my own world till school ended, (eating, msn-ing, forum-ing, etc) doing all sort of horrible with just a laptop in hand *winks*
and i believe im lucky to pass e 10% mcq ICT test today. Hahahas...practically gt all e 50-50 qns correct at the back!
hahaaa...too high- and i long decided to pon my effma make-up.
kills me, like as if i will listen if i go
15% ain't for nth.

afternoon- home is soo sweeeeeett. was still playing e aircon...moving here and there~ haha, finally open tree. and ms B spoilt my opening by being e 1st tagger.=.= and soon after, winglin broke down again
so damn...nvm,

i wonder how im gonna pass this semester~
nvm, i believe 船到桥头自然直

and im glad tt im not taking business finance/accounting course...LOOK, how horrible if im one. i most probably dropout of poly already~
S&W isnt too bad, at least i found it interesting a tad bit, although i still don't understand anything in it...

i feels like sleeping now

ok, still haven't decide if i wanna go business law+ effma make-up tutorial lesson...hmm, gd thing is tt jap start at 1pm. i only haf 1hr break. lesson frm 9-5pm then. Nvm, shall decide if i can manage to wake up on time tmr...
if not *smile*
told u. 15% aint for nth

BYESSSS

feel sooo dead
i got like tons of outstanding task and upcoming test

my desktop calender, e whole thing can be painted blue already=.=

21may- ICT ICA 1, NE Project submission deadline
22may- EEMA makeup (still pondering to go or)
26may- is the week which i have to hand in my mktmgt project. (which doesnt seems easy and that i havent started a bit)
30may- business finance ICA 1. (caculation is a gone case)
2june- is SW human anantomy labwork visit,
3june- SW ICA 1
6june- effma ICA1 and business law ICA1

and i still have to settle some tkd stuffs, booking of camp+organising a meeting and i haf to report them by tonight?!?

site is still not open yet
i still own joa FE judging results

OMFG~ SO DEAD. going school now and im not prepared yet.

ditch the library for the comp lab
its at least so much peaceful

be amazed by my tolerance for silent, how i can stare into a white space for hours and hours without even moving a single inch
thoughts in our brain are amazing

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works are pilling up. I'm practically stone-ing/fooling around/ in every of my lectures since the beginning. Can't seems to find back the concentration level i had last sem.
maybe someday, i need to sit down and STUDY. ain't working now actually..like never.
but i still manage to did rather avg result although I skipped at least every 10% of every modules lesson.
not to mention, i survived without buying any lecture notes for the whole sem.
Gah...what am i doing?!? and how did i manage to survive?

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survival.
I realised, all we need is to adapt to the ever changing environment. Hurtful and unrealistic as the way you wanted it to be. U can lose everything, except your pride. Don't lose yourself to them.

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just kill a pup in the morning. Too bored- incident was like long over and i decide to rake it up to the author. Look, i wasn't even upset??? i just feel like doing IT.
they don't hurt me in the way expected but me inflicting hurt on others is rather justified form, for they deserved so. Fair? I never give way.

my tolerance are amazingly high- good or bad?

I don't show doesn't mean i don't know and least that I don't care.
I cared even the smallest details,
surprisingly, i always remember such things well.

You're dead if i care.
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thoughts are simply amazing. time pass fast today.

lesson are starting. GONE

waking up early, reaching the school at 7am, sitting along in sch mac, is a more than enjoyable task to do
i loves the peace in the morning,
the only moment in life where i could really sit down, enjoy the fresh air and do some serious thoughts
at least it's much better than stinky library
last night turns better, after choosing to skip taekwondo...oh yea, not point being so tired already and dragging yourself to another workout session...
oh yea, not to mention that having a dinner with jocelyn for just half an hr could feel so good XD
we both choose to skip training! haha


i think today will be good


shall upload some of the photos i took with my phone earlier before

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Club Crawl 2008! A pic with jocelyn, before i got my hair rebounded. Ha, she was sick then. and i gt it from her in next day=.=

A pic of jiawen taken in mac. Went to attend NYJC choir concert

A scenary i took down at pandang, while volunteering for the jpmorgan event. ehh, make a good stock pic? XP

with Fangwei, as they come over to kovan to do a environmental project and asked me over to help

taken with jocelyn during ellina choo's talk. Gulity, because i still fall asleep at the end of the day.

with cath and joce at the same event

stayed up to 3am a few night before just to practise my jap...my horrible handwriting =.=

suddenly i feel that it would be so better much if i have someone to talk to.
library stinks-
human too noisy

awaiting for lesson to start, I hate having a 2hr break in between~

a screwed day. May it be better later on

It's blogging moment! despite not having to complete 2 tutorials due next morning=.=
 
school is still pretty good and nice till this moment. Classmates seem pretty alright also. Me too. ok, i shall reserve my words until our projects kick in. can behave that i've got over with it, but I can't forget so.

went to school early to pass cath a book for sale. Duh, on my way to library to actually slack for the remaining 1hr+ before class start at 2pm. Never did i expect to meet satish and shaz along the corridor... and got myself involved in filming nafpa video! they need people last min...and since i was sort of free...and erm, wearing that SW shirt=.=
ok, but i didnt do much and just sit around because i don't have the right shorts and wearing
slippers. guess the process was pretty crappy la

marketing managment. i attempted tutorial! Hurray!

saw eddy in school for the 2nd time ever since he left the class. 1st time was club crawl. Guess he's doing quite good for this period time. He changed for a better? Me too. At least that's what i thought. Maybe we will face each other in next semester, feeling much better with the past put behind.

business finance is a real bore. i don't understand much about what's going on so far:( the 1hr lecture was like zoom~ and ended too fast before i can absorb anything into my brain.
but i thought essential of sports and wellness was much more interesting. Human anatomy! Seems pretty fun...hehe, but crapx, i thought i might just die to remember all the bone structures term.
hahaha...radius and ulna... relate to our chickenwings. I'll remember this.

Taekwondo! - pattern! WOOHOO..i was damn happy to learn that we gonna do pattern today. Compared to the ultra shack training we have for the previous week. learn 1/2 of green belt pattern. sparring session again at the end of the day. lolx, my swollen left leg nv gonna recovers forever at this rate im going. The same spot keep on getting e bump! Sparred with freshie. think i injure one of them=.= ok, too bad loh. most probably skipping training for this coming fri, for my leg to recover. clear all the bruises!!!

tired after tkd session- haf to wake up at 6am tmr.. BYES!

disclaimer: i blogged under the circumstance in which i assume that none of my real life friends know about the existance of this blog. (since i abandon it for SOO long) So, pardon me for the contents if it make u feels any discomfort. Ur aint suppose to know yiing right? (:

a free sat- slacked my way through
i just don't feel that school have started... wait till the workload come in...HAHAHA
i actually planned to complete my tutorials todaydiligently...BUT...

i only woke up in the noon (too tired), and couldn't help but to start bitching online and photoshop a random request.

went out in after dinner to have a walk or so. A stroll down my house in much enjoyable. the only moment which i could feel the cooling breeze during the whole hot period. and i don't understand the temp difference between lvl 2 and lvl 10. same goes for the kitchen and my bedroom. different horrible air that im breathing in now. yup, i brought some chocolate and tibit too =p

return home and gt online again=.= i promised myself to start tutorials just to realise that i d/l wrong set of notes. RE-d/ling everything isnt fun. It was too late when i finally get my hands on...and yes sleepy too. too many more gt online and i cant resist the temptation to chat...and my scarcsm today is damn direct..oh well...
SOO basically,
i didnt completed a single work today.

sigh-but i guess i won't die. Just so. If only...
hahaha, marketing managment- although i can spend more time on my damn studies, but again i get satisfaction by spending the time on other stuff.
i profited still. (:

sleeping now.byes

Making a Comeback.

have the sudden urge to start blogging again, after a year or so.

nth much about my ordinary life

and yes, u're the lucky one if you chanced by this revived blog. yiing is back (:

surprising ehh?

coding layout is a complete failure. i still hate blogger because i don't understand how their coding work neh.... fine, i'm lazy too to actually do some research on blogger either. Just a random BOA graphic which i made a few days ago.

Forcing myself to go more into Jap culture and entertainment. sigh- not a passion. but yea i make weird decision which no one, not even myself, believe that i gt what it take to excel in that field.

ok, back to blogging. The recent hot weather and the start of school just make me gloomy. couldn't help so...i might just need to rant.

Ok, a lot of thoughts supposingly flow through me last night...but again, everything is put behind once i get online and crap my way through. keeping myself busy is a way out.

EMO. when i mention this word not here. I'm.

i highly suspect it's my virgo perfectionist's character that got my through all this. look, i'm not perfect. that it

i want to get a high GPA and excel my studies

i want to be a good PR and have a relationship with everyone around

i want to excel in sports and get fit enough to run a marathon

i want to photoshop making graphics which everyone will goes WOW

i want to train till a black belt in taekwondo

i want...

i want...

i want... practically EVERYTHING

i want to have a perfect life. but apparantly NOT. It's impossible. back to marketing. Let me just stick to my needs. just let me survive. But yea.. i'm not deprive of anything again. fortunate kid

lesson is starting. GTG.